27 Days...

In 27 days I'll marry my best friend.... I still haven't reserved the chairs for the wedding, so the 20 family members coming may be standing.... but we'll be getting married. Wow. It's starting to feel so real & somewhat crazy. And I wish I could say it's all happy & fun leading up to the wedding but that's not the truth. I wish I could say it's just the typical wedding stress, but it's not. It's heart breaking pain that Ang won't be here. It's breakdowns that make it feel like it was only yesterday that we said goodbye. I cried one night till I could barely breathe and I asked Andy how is it that this feels just as painful as the day we said goodbye? I'm so happy to be marrying Andy but the last 10 months of our engagement just didn't go how I expected...

"there ain't nothing like a memory, when it's coming on strong like a hurricane..."